A New Year, A New Day, A New Me.

Just a quick post today. Bill is someone I will always love. BUT, we are only friends and I have to understand that. I do understand it. But, there is a piece of me that feels something inside has died. I love him.
Anyway. I went on 2 dates with a guy names Tony and they sucked. They didn't, he did. When a man compliments you all the time you are together, it gets too hard to believe them. Just be nice to me, don't kill me with kindness. I told him I wasn't interested while on our second date. I received nasty email and IMs after that. I ignored them.
My therapist and the new medication I am on for being bipolar is making my life easier. I don't have to have a man. I want one for when I want one. BUT, I will not settle at all.
In my next post, probably later today, I will tell you about Al.
And update you on Hope, my little girl.
And tell you about being bipolar.
And whatever else I can think of.... :)