I think I am happy.
I am at least, very content.
I have good friends, a nice apartment (although a basement), a good job... a gorgeous, smart little girl.... life is good.
I really hope Al did well by the doctor today. I want to spend some time with him. I now have Hope until Sunday afternoon... so... I don't know if I have to wait until then to see him. Hope not.
My daughter has the energy of 1000 moms. I don't always have the ability to keep up. I play with her after work... in between IMing and writing to the blog! :)
She is my heart's desire. I have always wanted to be a mother and a wife. I am now realizing I am not that great at either. I am not the type of mom to live ONLY for Hope and G-d knows I am not a perfect wife at all.
I married someone 25 years older than me. I am now happily divorced. He just was so happy being the way we were. Didn't matter that he was on Social Security Disability and Workers Comp at 56 and I was working my ass off with a full time job and AVON full time. We did AVON fairs on weekends here and there to make extra money. Yeah fit it in with working and trying to be a mom. I burned out.
I just didn't love him enough.
Hope. I love her enough. I wouldn't be with someone if she hated him. Although, she is young enough not to know just yet who to like or not. Thankfully.
I am feeling good today. I wanted to write.
I wanted to write about my hopes for the future... my goals, aspirations. I want to be healthy in mind and body. I want to be a better mom, better daughter, better friend. I want to always love Bill because I love him so honestly, so completely. I want to know Al... get to say I love you and mean it and have it returned, romantically. I think he is ... able to be what I want for myself ... at least for now. I don't know what tomorrow brings. I do enjoy him, now. He is like no other man I have met. He takes no crap from me!!!!!!!!!!! And he is supportive and caring and strong. SO STRONG!
The two men and one girl in my life! :) Not too bad a life!
Thanks for reading. Goodbye for now.
I have good friends, a nice apartment (although a basement), a good job... a gorgeous, smart little girl.... life is good.
I really hope Al did well by the doctor today. I want to spend some time with him. I now have Hope until Sunday afternoon... so... I don't know if I have to wait until then to see him. Hope not.
My daughter has the energy of 1000 moms. I don't always have the ability to keep up. I play with her after work... in between IMing and writing to the blog! :)
She is my heart's desire. I have always wanted to be a mother and a wife. I am now realizing I am not that great at either. I am not the type of mom to live ONLY for Hope and G-d knows I am not a perfect wife at all.
I married someone 25 years older than me. I am now happily divorced. He just was so happy being the way we were. Didn't matter that he was on Social Security Disability and Workers Comp at 56 and I was working my ass off with a full time job and AVON full time. We did AVON fairs on weekends here and there to make extra money. Yeah fit it in with working and trying to be a mom. I burned out.
I just didn't love him enough.
Hope. I love her enough. I wouldn't be with someone if she hated him. Although, she is young enough not to know just yet who to like or not. Thankfully.
I am feeling good today. I wanted to write.
I wanted to write about my hopes for the future... my goals, aspirations. I want to be healthy in mind and body. I want to be a better mom, better daughter, better friend. I want to always love Bill because I love him so honestly, so completely. I want to know Al... get to say I love you and mean it and have it returned, romantically. I think he is ... able to be what I want for myself ... at least for now. I don't know what tomorrow brings. I do enjoy him, now. He is like no other man I have met. He takes no crap from me!!!!!!!!!!! And he is supportive and caring and strong. SO STRONG!
The two men and one girl in my life! :) Not too bad a life!
Thanks for reading. Goodbye for now.
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