I am overwhelmed by men!

So there is E who is early fifties, single and not too far away. Kinky as all hell.
There is C who is late thirties, black, and lives in NJ. Open to being my every wish fulfulling slave.
There is C2 who is 32, single and from Queens. C2 is spending Saturday with me. He is very kinky and into almost everything but men!
There is M who is almost 35, single, has a 4 year old son, lives in Manhattan and is offering to pay all my bills while I stay home to have a baby with him.
HOLY SHIT!
And then there is Al. Al won't read my blog anymore because he feels it isn't a way to communicate with those you know and care about. So.. I can freely say what I want (which I would anyway). Al is pretty sick with a virus. He is healing from the ankle wound. He has no time to be with me. I am needy and whiny at the very moment.
I want someone to spend time with. I wish any of the above men (besides M) wanted to spend time with me for something besides sex. I know its negative attention but I am craving it right now. Maybe to make sure the medication isn't making me asexual. I have mental urges but I don't feel it in my body as much. SO unlike me.
Oh, I forgot about S. I had lunch with him a few days ago.... I liked him a lot. I liked him kissing me goodbye.. even for a minute. It was one soft kiss (peck) on the lips. Anyway... enough about the kiss.
He is married. It won't be more than playing with him.
When I spoke with M on the phone a few days ago I was a little needy (see prior post) and I started to cry. He dealt with it.
Almost all of them (or all of them, I can't remember) know I am bipolar. They are all accepting of it. What choice do they have?
Anyway... another baby. I have always wanted more than one child. I just didn't think it would happen. I would want legal papers drawn up ahead of time. I couldn't afford to have a baby and then we break up. I couldn't afford another baby alone. But... a man who heard me cry, doesn't think I am psycho and wants to please me in EVERY way. Kink aside... he knows I want to be loved and adored and cared for. What more can a girl ask for? OH, he's gorgeous. :)
And tall!!!!!!!!!!! 6'4". AWESOME! :)
I know I am rambling. I just have so much on my mind and I need to go to sleep.
I am friendly with Emily again. Not an everyday friendship but a casual friendship.
We will see what happens.
Anyway... goodnight and G-d Bless.