Short but sweet

I am at work so this blog will be relatively short until I have more time to write.
I finally went to dinner with Al on Friday night. OMG Hope was horrible. She threw a tantrum like never in her life before. It was totally embarassing. But, more importantly, I found out that Al and I have nothing to talk about. I was afraid of that. But honestly Hope was only half of why the date bombed. I had been SO looking forward to that night... too late I guess.
I went to Chuck E Cheese with Hope and Stacy and the kids. We had a great time on Saturday. We spent a few hours at Stacy's house afterward. I like hanging out with her, we have a RELAXING time!!!
Sunday I was with Hope... until almost 5. I went to dinner with Justin. A new man. Sexy... hmmmm hmmmmmmm hmmmmmmmm
We will see what happens.
I am supposed to see Doc tonight. Let's see how it goes if he shows up.
So, that is a nutshell of men lately.
OH yeah. Bill was mad at me. He might still be, I am not sure. He thinks I want nothing to do with him. I only want him happy, truly, but I don't need intimate details of that happiness.
Its hard to explain. I want his friendship, I love him. BUT, at the same time, I romanticised him!! I think he is more than he is, bigger and better, so to speak. I need to remember, he is a great guy but he isn't my great guy anymore. I also need to stop wanting him sexually. I have others to take care of my needs, why do I want him? He was very good, we had a great time but I know its over. I do. Hurumph. Oh well.
I need to email Doc... seeya all later!